I'm loosing.

I'm loosing people. School ended and I lost people, and I barely bounced back. Uni has now ended, and people are leaving. I'm loosing them, to all parts of the UK, potentially the world, and everyone is moving back, moving on, moving forward.

And where am I? Still here. I don't move on, as I never think others will move on without me.

It's dark. And I'm left behind as always, forgotten. A stuffed bear on a shelf, once loved but now lost. Lost to time, lost to the recesses of memory, you hear my name and vaguely remember me, but nothing significant. I'm faded, faded into memory, memory that gets lost.

I love

I love,
I love, a simple one this,
I love you.

I Need

I need,
I need, like plants need the sun,
I need, like we need water to survive,
I need, like we all need friendship to stay sane,
I need, like our bodies need sleep.
I need you.

I Hurt

I hurt,
I hurt, like you've taken my heart with you,
I hurt, like it will never get better,
I hurt, for all the missed opportunities, the opportunities snatched away,
I hurt for you.

I Miss

I miss,
I miss, like the earth misses the sun at night,
I miss, like your body misses oxygen.
I miss you.

Experience

Experience, it's a pain in the arse. Many job ads now say "Previous experience preferred." or "Previous experience a must." but how do you get the damned experience without having the job? You apply for the job, they look at the CV and there is no experience, they either rip it up, or if they're kind, they interview you then grill you on why you applied with no experience. Sucks aye?

What I don't understand is why can't they hire you with no experience, maybe pay you less for ... 3 months while you're trained, trained I might add to be perfect for what the company needs, then raise the pay once trained. That way you have someone who can do their job and do it well, the way its wanted to be done. But no, companies don't want to waste time on training, they'd rather have people that are trained in different methods than the ones you currently use, meaning work is done wrong, or formatted wrong meaning it needs to be done again, making the world load on others more as the new person gets to grips with the new methods. Isn't it better to have someone trained to fit your needs than effectively force a square peg in a round hole?
Jen.X

Excuses

How many times do we make excuses every day? Excuses to get out of doing something; excuses to not have to listen to a potentially boring situation; excuses as to why we are not in a certain place at a certain time. Yet what harm can excuses do? Can they hurt? Can they ruin lives? Of course they can. Not listening to someone can make them regret trying, make them not try again. Bottling feelings up, keeping problems to yourself can lead to problems, depression. Depression is an illness, but it can be helped.

Next time you think about making an excuse to not have to listen to someones troubles, stop and think. This person has chosen you to confide in, you to talk to. Don't throw this trust back at them, encourage it and help them. Don't let them be bottled up.
Jen. X